Episode 28: The Fear of a Life Going to Waste

As the world continues to open back up from the pandemic, and I find myself literally in the same co-op system I was in when I graduated UC Berkeley at 20, I've been confronted with a very soul-shaking fear that frankly, my life is going nowhere. The moment-to-moment can feel complicated, and like tiny steps of progress are being made, but when I zoom out on the whole, it seems that nothing has "gone my way" since I've graduated college, and I have no idea how to course-correct myself. My life back then seemed so promising, "ahead' of all those around me. Now it feels mired in pursuits that bear no fruit, and a crippling sense of existentialism and nostalgia. So yeah, that's what I talk about haha.